Lucy will be in surgery at LeBonheur most of the day to remove 3 tumors from her brain and 2 from her spine (with a diagnosis of medulloblastoma). All came to fruition in the last 48 hours. As Kate put it, "it happened in the blink of an eye." I feel as though I am barely able to function because my thoughts cannot seem to stray from them. A mother of healthy children can only imagine what a mother of children who are less than healthy goes through. Just a matter of months ago, I posted this with the same title as today's post.... Another friend who has suffered and continues to suffer with a sick baby. Why? Why? I am really struggling with the suffering issue right now. I watched the new documentary "Waiting for Superman" (on the problems with public schools; like in Harlem, D.C, etc..) and watching the lives of those children who live in poverty and well in general just suffer way more than my kids....well, I was already struggling with why all the suffering in the world and now, well lets just say I am really having issues with it. Kate said in her post this morning that we can't question...we just trust God. Kate even shared in these thoughts in bible study last week...man, how ironic that she would be talking about not understanding why some people suffer and others (like her last Friday) don't have much to worry about....and now, she is dealing with more suffering than nearly humanly possible to endure. I do know that good things will come from Lucy's situation...but for now, I need God to reveal to me something to help me deal with all of the suffering I am witnessing. I really am just kind of mad about it all, if I am being transparent. But, right now, the only thing that makes sense is to pray for a miracle, so that's what I will do. Every time I think of Lucy and Kate and Eric today I will say a "breath prayer" for them. Please join me.
If you don't already follow Kate's blog or don't know her (it is linked to mine) but her is the site. She will be updating Lucy's progress here. http://erikandkatekrull.blogspot.com/
2 comments:
I'm right there with you sister. Our lesson in community group today was about God's soverignty. I don't want to admit that I'm questioning it but I guess I am. For a sweet baby to suffer as much as Lucy is going to have to just seems evil. I am hurting and wrestling with God about this. As you are, I am praying for miracle and asking God to be glorified.
Very well written Laura, so honest. I am in the same situation now questioning over Lucy. You hear about kids having cancer all the time but you never think it will be someone so close to you with it. But prayer is a powerful thing and that's what we will do and continue to do, praying for them.
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